-That's New York-

Did you remembered I got marriage proposal from guy in Rockefeller family(I do not want to be killed by hitman,I don't show name) when I lived in NYC?

I got a phone call again from him.

Such as 3years absence.


It was early morning again,But fortunately he is sober.

We had a great talk this time.


He is still looking for his Mr,right.

I could explain i have fiancé and he is accepting my work and strong passion to Escorting.So my family share me and life eternity.


But I couldn't explain well or his sadness emotion dominant to block this useful information.


Then The End is same like last time.

Nearly I couldn't hear what he said but suddenly hang up calling


I guess not that so many people can be beyond my fiancé.

Independent n strong patient n fairness n care n respect n down to earth n give me free will.also he can change his belief when he realized another one is right....even Scorpion.

Then,little clumsy❤️?


I felt nothing about Rockefeller guy even hang up roughly.

I surprised myself about my growing up.

And could text him that his way of End is horrible.also blocked his number.

Because I only use my time to my family.


No exception people who is authorities or has 70 percents of wealth of world.

When people be a naked nobody upper or below.

All same.


This is Nari way.

I love you Craig❤️ and my families?

Arigato and Thank you

I like English(please don't point out I need learning)
Sound quite comfortable and I feel that this language has lots of space of listener and reader's imagination.

(lots of misunderstood happened also....)


Anyway,so I use in English normal life.

Especially "thanks" "Thank you"Quite rhythmical.

Telling n being told lots like a positive floods.


Normally I don't use in Japanese especially writing.

Because Japanese have being developed by books and letters.

So Even skip and make short words,It is quite long sentence and have to express by words.


Such as heavy language,I use it or coming from my mouth naturally when I moved or strong grateful feeling whether or not person knows about Japanese.


Arigato pronounce is A-ri-ga-to-(o).4 or 5 strong sounds need to express.

It is double than in English.


Also Arigato origin is "happening rarely".The matters happened rarely brings strong grateful feelings.


If My mouse provide Arigato,Double depth of thanks and grateful meaning.

About Death

Maybe you know If keep trying to read this (terrible grammar) blogs,I always think death close positively,Then I can enjoy present life and taking chances more.So I am always ready even I am die today,tomorrow.Death never scaring me.

My family client...He told me he is scared (definition of)death.

When he was school boy,realized everyone will be dead ,never failed it.And it might come suddenly.

Then He was completely stun his real life.

He felt his surrounded are just faded.

It kept several month.Almost his family thought he lost mind and send to psychologic nursery.


He was on high educated line in those days,his talent,intelligence and wideness must be used in long life run.Suddenly Death and Stop his name before recognized widespread in the world is completely unacceptable to him.


So He is very scared Death.

The Wall

-The Wall-
We do have to face present only.

There's no enough time.

It is useless to struggle own past.

Because We can't change past.


We will face the wall which is blocking our way.

Maybe we need crushing it.

Maybe you need to take inside it.

Maybe It need waiting time to disappear it


Be wise,Be calm,Be cool

Can you die tomorrow?

I am a not only energy receptor to be taken my power, but also I have sort of inactive personality.
(Wish I could watch movies and books whole day...)
When I was in Tokyo, I dreamed of success and I am sured my humanity abilities given a great job.
But Economy in Japan is facing serious problem.
I am not hired as good position, not decent salary.
Year round, 2nd year, 3rd year, 4th year....
I was not started regular career, my future isn't cleared. I wasn't given a chance.
Then I opened travel book, the page was Melborne, st kilda.
2 weeks later, I landed in Australia with only 2 suits case.
When I opened travel book, I intended to look as refreshing mind.
But 4 years struggle would be same even 10 years later, 20 years later...
or i might die tomorrow by stress
(I lost conscious in train several times thoes days)
I questioned myself.
"Can you die today?"
"No.I didn't enjoy anything in my life"
Keep asking the question each moment, Then I am here and could find beautiful blossoms in Zurich.
I am not enough to enjoy life, but At least i don't regret If I die tomorrow.
Also living with death is no fear of terrorism, accidents, etcetc.
Everybody gets old, Everybody will die soon or later